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You And Me And NYE!


How are you? No really, how are you feeling right now? I’m feeling pretty damned good, I must say. This past week has given me time to reflect and appreciate what I have and those I love. I haven’t done much, physically, but only because my left knee has been completely fucked…certainly not because I was lacking in spirit. These last few days hanging out with my husband and our puggyman and our tabby-cat and our BFFs and just all of it. The wine and food and laughs and games and fun and silliness! You know what? That is the spice of life, silliness! To be so at ease with yourself and whomever you are in proximity to just let go and be silly? That is the raddest thing of all!

Tomorrow night my friend Jeanette and I are hitting up a local BBW club for their NYE party. I’m so excited! I’m so nervous! That is so weird, I don’t really get nervous anymore. But it feels a bit like prom or something. I’ve never gone out on NYE. Well, okay, to friends’ houses or whatever, but never dressed up and never to a big fab party! We both bought dresses for it and are talking about up-dos and sparkly shoes and it’s so fun! I feel girly! I don’t often get to engage this side of me so it feels strange and adventurous! I will no doubt have many pictures to share, but more importantly, the experience itself. I know so many aren’t able or aren’t confident enough to do things like this. But this is why I do it!

I do it to show that you can even be a death fatty like me and have a great NYE or dress up and go out dancing or anything your heart desires! I do it to normalize fatness. I do it to feel fucking awesome! I do it to push back against the haters that would have us all hidden away or worse! When I try a new style of fashion that I’ve never seen on a fat person, I am pushing boundaries for myself and others. I love that! When I am unafraid and unapologetic about myself and my size? I am throwing a big middle finger to anyone who thinks that I should just shut up and conform!

That is punk rock, baby! And PUNK WILL NEVER DIET!!!

I hope that you have a safe and fun NYE no matter what you do. I hope that you will refuse to engage in the self-hating ritual of resolutions and consider ReVolutions instead! Check out some resources at that link or :

I do think that even small acts can create a ripple effect and together we can make a big fatty wave of positive goodness! I hope 2012 treats us all much better than 2011 did. I for one am glad it’s over and done with. I am hopeful for the coming year and it’s endless possibilities and opportunities. Here’s to you and yours! Aand Cheers to all on Earth!

8 Comments to

“You And Me And NYE!”

  1. On December 30th, 2011 at 2:33 pm JM Says:

    I am so excited for NYE. And even though I’ve second thought the shoes and dress and hair a hundred times, I can’t wait. Bring on 2012 cause I’m doing my thing!!! And its gonna be HOT!!!

  2. On December 30th, 2011 at 2:40 pm Not Blue at All Says:

    JM: Woo Hoo!!! Yeah, I still don’t know about shoes and hair. Those two do seem to be the most complicated. Ha-ha!

  3. On December 31st, 2011 at 5:13 am Dee Says:

    Happy New Year! Hope you have an absolute blast tonight.

  4. On December 31st, 2011 at 11:54 am Not Blue at All Says:

    Dee: Thanks so much, hun. I hope you do as well! <3

  5. On December 31st, 2011 at 12:33 pm Twistie Says:

    I’m going to our friends’ annual NYE party, and this year if anyone tries to talk to me about their new diet, I’m turning around and walking away. Last year I kept getting cornered – while wearing my scarlet Fat and everything! – by people who know I’m anti-diet to tell me all about the foods and eating habits they were giving up for 2011 so they could at long last weigh less. This year, it ain’t happening.

    And if I can’t physically get away, I’m going to pull out my line of: ‘How about that local sports franchise?’

    I am NOT getting stuck listening to people talk at me about losing weight this year.

  6. On December 31st, 2011 at 12:41 pm Not Blue at All Says:

    Twistie: My lovely and smartypants friend, I know you will find a way to get away from the diet talk no matter what. Scarlet fat and all! Actually, perhaps I’ll wear my fat necklace tonight. I hadn’t even thought about it, but why the fuck not?! Thank you for that! I hope you have a great time at the party!

  7. On December 31st, 2011 at 6:54 pm thirtiesgirl Says:

    I’ve been out, stayed in, with friends, without friends, on my own, with a significant other, etc, many, many times on NYE. Most of the time, I’ve always been a little disappointed with my NYE going-out experiences, especially when I’m on my own (it always tends to depress me), and sometimes with friends. But when it’s right, it’s RIGHT, and I’ve had some great NYE going-out experiences with some of my best buds. I hope yours turns out to be lots of fun.

    I’m so glad to hear you’ve been enjoying the holiday season with good friends and loved ones. It’s my favorite thing to do, too. Sadly, I don’t have any friends or loved ones around me at the moment, largely because after 14 years in this city, the people I considered good friends have either moved on to other things in their lives or became complete flakes. And my family certainly isn’t any prize. I’m in a pretty bleak headspace this holiday season after spending 2 days with my loveless family and then being threatened with eviction by my apartment manager. I don’t know if he’ll follow through; he claims it’s just a “warning,” which I interpret to mean he’s not completely serious. We’ll see how things go in the next few weeks. Suffice to say, having my living situation threatened does not lead to feelings of security, and has caused constant anxiety to take up residence somewhere in my upper intestine.

    For that reason, I would not be a very good dance partner for anyone this NYE, so I’m staying in, keeping my cats company, with my bottle of prosecco and Kathy Griffin & Anderson Cooper on the tube. I love to watch them host CNN’s New Years special. Lets hope I don’t wake up cotton-mouthed on the couch at 6 a.m. on January 1 (it’s happened once or twice before…heh). But to borrow a phrase from Tom Waits, “there’s nothing wrong with a lady drinking alone in her room.”

    Hope you have a great time going out and I hope you take pics of your outfit to show us.

  8. On January 1st, 2012 at 11:57 am Not Blue at All Says:

    thirtiesgirl: Great quote! Which Tom Waits song is that from? I must admit that every NYE has been somewhat of a disappointment or me as well. I’m sorry to hear about your landlord threatening you. I hope that things work out easily and quickly for you. *Hugs*

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