Tell Me Tuesday
Well, hello there!
I hope the past weekend didn’t do you in. I survived, in-tact even!
For today’s Tell Me Tuesday I want to talk about things we feel guilty for having/doing.
Today I will be participating in our second annual “Pajama/Video Game/Donut Day” which will include a movie this time around. I do feel guilty for having the luxury, but since I don’t get any sort of true vacation except this one week a year after the holiday, I’m not going to be too hard on myself.
What do you feel guilty about doing/having? Did you receive a holiday gift that makes you feel uncomfortable or question the relationship with the person who gave it to you? Did something happen over the weekend that you just have to tell someone or otherwise get off your chest?
Tell me about it! =0)
Well, basically, I am happy that it is all over. Because of family circumstances & both my sons spending Saturday with in-laws (though I was invited to have dinner at my younger son’s house Saturday as well as Sunday), I, who hate the holidays, got to wade through Christmas TWICE. On Christmas Day, I also got to be exposed to my d-i-l’s relatives, who all have serious issues, reminding me of my own insane, abusive, alcoholic parents. Also, my middle brother died last Wednesday night & the man who has for some years now sworn his undying love & devotion & total commitment to me apparently disappeared from my life; I have not heard a word from him in 20 days. As I do every year, I also got sick in December, just a nasty cold, nothing serious. And my d-i-l is also dealing with her SIXTH battle with cancer, thyroid cancer this time, so we are all consumed by that, worried about her & that my granddaughter, for whom I care several days every week & have nearly since she was born, will be without a mother sometime soon. There was also the usual struggle to live month to month on a fixed income, which is even trickier when you try to do Christmas on a fixed income.
Kate’s mother is alcoholic, drug-addicted, psychotic, abusive toward everyone, & manages to pretty well ruin any family party she attends. The bright spot is that she suddenly decided to leave early & the day was much less stressful for everyone after that.
In summary, I am so glad that Christmas is over & so hoping that 2011 will be a better year. I hope that you & all your readers have much happier holiday stories. And, well, you DID ask if I needed to get something off my chest.
*hugs*
Oh, dear, I am so sorry to hear about all of this. But thank you for feeling comfortable enough to get it off of your chest here. I know how it feels to be so full of, well, everything that you feel as though you might burst, but then also can’t find a appropriate outlet for the venting you may require. Bravo to you for that! Please do not give up hope! Life is a crazy bunch of bananas, but usually finds a way of working itself out in the end. We may find ourselves in what may seem to be the worst of situations, but given time, we can often see why it is we had to go through it in the first place. I hope you find that it is all worth the struggle in the end, for both of our sake.
My biggest issue with holiday season is the ridiculous assumption that we want to spend time with people we rarely see. If we really wanted to see them we’d make it so during the normal course of the year I think. Shouldn’t not seeing someone but once a year be a clear enough message to them that either we don’t like them or their behavior is just terrible? Oh well. Must look after ourselves and those we love, I know. I hope that you can find a moment for yourself each day, you deserve something special. Even if it’s silly dancing or a quick face mask. Something for yourself, please! *hugs*
Here’s to a bright, exciting and prosperous new year for us all! <3
At the moment I feel most guilty about never having returned a bunch of books. The people who lent them to me have moved away to don’t-know-where, and the books form a permanent block of guilt on my bookshelf.
I know how that feels. Is there no way of contacting the owners? Or a friend of theirs? They probably have forgotten, but what a nice surprise it would be, too. Either way, no worries, I think. Cheers to you for fessing up, regardless and here’s hoping for a fab new year!
Thanks for the support & the understanding. It does help to write it out & see all that I have been dealing with. December tends to be a rough month for me, but I guess I hit the jackpot this year. I wish you a wonderful 2011 & hope that it will be better for all of us.
I got a new camera for xmas from my estranged father. It’s a really nice camera, and I am thankful for it, but I hold back enthusiasm because I don’t feel like he deserves that many cookies from me over something that really only cost him in bones. Another part of me feels like I don’t really deserve something that nice, either. But it is a truly wonderful gift, the gift of caught memories, photography experimentation and much higher quality photos for my blog readers. I missed you! Welcome back <3
He must have known how much you’d use and appreciate it. I don’t think you have to gush your gratitude, but simply appreciate the thought he must have put into it. The dollar value in this case shouldn’t matter. But I know I’ll be looking forward to the results of this new gift of yours.
Thanks. You’re a doll!