If you can find a way to stay positive, you’ll be okay. If you can see your hotness, even when others don’t/can’t, you’ll be okay. If you have friends who have your back, you’ll be okay. If you have people in your life who love you, you’ll be okay. I know this because I live it. I live in a life that I created (for the most part), one that I am proud of. I may be in a moment of chaos, but in the long wrong, I’ll be okay.
The other night, while wearing that fabulous $8.99 dress, I looked down at my lap and thought to myself, “Damn! I look pretty fucking hot in this dress! I should wear more body-con dresses, yo!” No one was around, I was in my room alone. It felt good to see this in myself. To love my body just as it was. To not fear my visible belly, hips, rolls and folds. To just walk around in this fat body, to celebrate it and to embrace it! While the men in my life didn’t need to tell me I was hot to make it so, it sure would have been nice! Ha-ha! I kid! Seriously, I am so disappointed whenever I hear women say that they didn’t realize or couldn’t accept or see their own beauty until a dude told them so (validation). Ugh!
We are fierce creatures, sexy beasts and “Powerful Goddesses” one and all! If you can’t see it today, check back tomorrow!!! Because it’s there! You just have to take off the bullshit lenses and see the real you! Try something new! Get a haircut or a new mascara (glam when you can!), buy something you’d never normally pick out for yourself. One of those, “Oh that’s so cute, but I could never…” type of items! I never would have picked this dress out for myself, normally. But a year or so ago a friend gave me a gorgeous body-con dress that I ended up loving so much I want to have it reproduced! Well, I would if I could sew or had the money to have someone else do it. It’s just the most perfect dress. Jersey knit, body-con, bright colors and pockets!
I cannot believe I spent my entire adult life not wearing dresses. Why did I deprive myself of pretty and sexy dresses? Mostly chub-rub (thank the stars and Deb for Teggings!), but also because I wasn’t confident. Fuck that! I looked and look great in a dress! I love my dresses! I’m so proud of my dress collection, actually! And shit, for $8.99? I could live with cheaper dresses if they fit like that one did! Ha-ha! But that’s the thing, isn’t it? Fit! Ugh!
I won’t get into a whole tirade on lack of options for rad fatties who want to be fatshionable. Kath does the best job of it on FatHeffalump.wordpress.com and I refuse to make an ass of myself because I know I’ll just start swearing! That’s the truth of it though. Access. Access to things that fit our fat bodies. Thank fuck for Eshakti.com!!! And did you hear? FREE CUSTOMIZING FOR ALL OF MARCH!!! Oh yeah! I already know which dress and top I’ll be getting! I just hope I don’t get all addicted again, dude. Not cool. I mean, I love my dresses, but ouch! (Credit card shudders!)
Also, dressing up as your most bad ass self helps a lot! I will be doing just that as shaking said bad ass Saturday night! Oh yes, fatty dance party! Woot! My BFF and I are going to dance our proverbial butts off and have a blast doing it! Aw yeah! Eat your heart out world! Because when we’re having fun and just doing our thang? Nothing can stop us and no one can bring us down! It ain’t about looks, yo…it’s about how you feel!
So find your hotness, own that shit, work it out and show it off! You are amazing! You sparkle! You shine! You rock! And if you’re not there yet, never fear, you will soon. You just will and you’ll be okay. If I can be okay, you can too! =0)