Have you ever just felt completely full of blah? Like, even when you see something that would normally make you smile, only makes you more blah? That’s where I’m at today. Malaise. I have nothing to be truly down about (well I do, but I doubt it’s just that), but I just cannot be bothered today. Even looking at something that could lead to a new adventure and fulfill a dream (okay, with a lot of work, what else is new) made me feel more down. Ugh! Do not want!
So how do I snap out of this? I do get into a funk from time to time, but usually due to something specific or a build up of things. Today started out okay, I didn’t over sleep or anything. I dunno, is it possible that all of this socializing I’ve been doing has caught up to me? Is that like a thing? I feel mega tired but for no reason. It is hot out today, has been for a few days. But I was in a great mood…for the last couple of months! Even when Friday night ended up being sort of a bummer (though not entirely, I did enjoy myself despite the gropers) I still was in a good mood about it. Hmm…
Yesterday I went over to a friend’s place and hung out while she baked all manner of goodness and fed me tasty things and introduced me to new things…it was fun! I felt so loved and special. I will admit that the drive home nearly did me in. The heat plus two accidents on the highways left me in my car for two hours (took all of 40 mins to get to her place). Oh well. I was still in high spirits last night. My wonderful husband welcomed me home with a hug, a kiss and a cold bottle of hard apple cider! He loves me! Ha-ha!
Today? Eh. I just don’t feel like doing anything. I’m tired. I’m blah. I’m uninspired to say the least. I don’t even have music on at the moment, which may be for the first time since I sold the cafe. Shocking. I’ve had plenty of caffeine today. I maybe didn’t make the best choice for lunch (Taco Bell? Uh, meh.) but that could be because I just couldn’t make a decision and it’s close and cheap. Certainly not my fave or go-to. Oh well.
With the new face book layout (that is all anyone is talking about) and my dislike of google+ thus far, I am not even getting my usual online social/news fix. It feels as though someone hit the pause button on me or something. I’m not even wanting to listen to my local community supported radio station. Normally I’d be glued to the speakers, especially considering the current and on-going injustice of the Troy Davis case. It’s all somehow too much.
Perhaps my body is telling me to slow down? But why? I took it pretty damned easy this weekend in hopes of resting up for a very busy coming weekend. So what gives? Does this just happen? Do I just ride it out? I guess that is all I can do at this point. I’m just not feeling up to much else. I hope all is well with you and yours. Thank you for reading. If I take a couple of days off from blogging, please do not worry. Feel free to drop me a line: firstname.lastname@example.org